Walk Alone

I saw a posting on Facebook from an old acquaintance, Jason Johnson, that stated, 'Realizing that I am 26, while ya'll out ther clubbing, messing with these chicken head ho's who ain't about anything, I'm at home, eating steak, trying to raise my family, because it isn't about me anymore.' That comment was so refreshing to hear from someone my own age. I enjoy going out just as much as the next person. I certainly have done my share of partying and clubbing. But what I took from that comment was that Jason is telling everyone to get their lives at home straight before they go out and live their lives like they don't have any other care in the world. He's seems to be doing okay. He has a place to call home, eating good, and taking care of his family. I don't know his complete situation, but i'm going to assume that he has a job, a car, obviously a home, and his family around him to enjoy it with. Who doesn't want that? I know I do. That's exactly why i'm here in Texas, away from my family. I'm doing what I have to do, even when I don't want to. I've been here two weeks. During that time, I have yearned to go home so much. I have gone through my moments of depression, not getting anything done. But, thanks to some around me, I have been encouraged to keep busy, doing what I can to stay positive, and keep a good outlook on the future. I have chose a career that, for a period of time, will keep me away from home for awhile. So, in a since, this is the beginning of my career. That's okay to me, because I can see the future benefits.

I have had encouragement from another man I met on my travels. His name is Johnathan Garland. I met him when I first arrived in Texas. He had left his family in Houston to come to Dallas and, like me, get on with this trucking company. I spent my first weekend with him. We went out and got some drinks. What astounded me about this man was his dedication and focus on his family. Every move he made was based on the fact that he had to do whatever it took to take care of home. He wasn't going to allow anything to keep him from that goal. I had to buy another round, shake his hand, and draw as much energy from that brother that I could. It felt good to hear him evince such powerful feelings.

I'm chuckling right now because there is only so much i'm ready to express about my personal situation, which makes me wonder why i'm writing any of this at all. There are unseen things that i'm waiting to unfurl. When they do so, then, I will comment on them then. I do not have enough information to make any real concrete decisions. Now, i'm not stupid. I pay attention to things. I'm not one to leave myself open to be taken advantage of. I guess i'm writhing all this because I feel, at this moment, that I walk alone. I feel like it"s just me out here. I feel like I have a lot to shoulder, because, if I don't, it won't happen. That's why I make the necessary sacrifices. I'm going to take power from these brothers comments. I'm going to stay focused, work hard, and look forward to seeing all the benefits of my hard work that are to come. Peace to everyone taking care of their business. I'll be there with you soon.

The Roots - Walk Alone